Saturday, March 29, 2025

Doctor My Eyes.

 

                                            

 

I am clean shaven again although pieces of clear tape still cover these scars, these scars where a child-bride doctor whacked and sliced away layers of face and throat to expel the cancer. I drink black coffee, blink several times—eyes wet and stinging, there’s remnants of last night’s dream crusted on the edges and I’m settling into a place one could call reverie although a better poet would have a better word and now I’m back in Tucson in Autumn trying unsuccessfully to digest the news delivered by phone while driving there’s a melanoma cursing my right upper arm and no matter how much coffee I drink here in this sprawling Starbucks I have another—a third—news of cancer shock to deal with alone in this desert city where I’ve driven a half day across mountains of sand and sagebrush to honor my dead friend Doug and spread his ashes in front of our beloved Zinburger restaurant in the blazingly tormented Arizona heat. Yes, there is a path of joy of awe for our trip through this life---it’s not all sorrow and struggle and cancer, not all St John of the Cross dark nights—the soul knows both fearful medical news and surprising delights---how canyon walls soar, intrigue and uplift, how they gladden the heart, lighten the limbs, bring a dear friend back from the dead somehow in sacred silence, in reverie, for a blessed minute among the saguaros and sand, faces half-hidden among boulders and a sky singing like gold..

Friday, March 28, 2025

The Visit

Today, before quiet had it's way with us, a cloud

comes tapping at my wooden door

--a cloud--don't ask how--swooshing softly,

wherein its cotton smock a crow is streaking

even as I write of these and similar troubles 

all while a pot of coffee brewing sings 'come in',

steams, adds cream, stirs, then sips and bubbles.


Thursday, March 27, 2025

If And When

If and when we drill deeper, towards the brown gleaming acorn
within an acorn, gathering all for our Ithaca, our guiding 
dream, beloved image, siren song calling feet 
onto evermore meandering roads, don't bet on ever arriving..
Yet, still we slug down another gulp of somewhat warm 
creamed coffee, lick fat lips, and recall the tiny yellow bird
at dusk, the colorful seahorses flying across a cerulean sky, 
and yes! that water lapping lusciously with such friendliness
at the world's bright, tumbling edge.

The Dog and The Others

Junkyard dogs beget junkyard dogs, frenzied snarling and wild-eyed,

or when they don't, frantic kittens slinking fast under cyclone fences.

I stand ten or twelve feet from mayhem doing my best to stay level-

headed, one foot perched atop wet gravel, the other facing an ugly

street, rusting Chevrolets and illusions of safety. Then, as if beckoned

by a kind god, a tiny bird erupts all yellow, spectacularly alive, singing

that rings like a monastery bell, like a river cooling a stand of birches

over the desperate scene.


Shining Light

Sun pours in the living room window, warmth offers pleasure,

yet I must move towards relative darkness--skin cancer

and bright sun no longer friends. Children in Palestine, hopscotch

and jump ropes their giggling targets until the bullet in the brain. 

Evil incarnate feasts on American treasure, cancer ejaculates 

into sunshines of ignorance, dawnings of apathy, mangled lights 

of everyone's darkness.

 

Sunday, October 20, 2024

 After Contemplating An Essay On Wilderness


Sometimes wildness must
Appear from an unknown
Cave as a whisper
From the Friend, a soft flutter
Of butterfly wings, a quickening impulse
To do good or harm, even
This minuscule spider
Skittering across pages
Of your journal—that touchstone
Of untamed truths—the creature
Surprising you in its sudden
Emergence as you open the book,
Prompting you
To abandon the bowl brimming
With blue-berried granola,
Standing up now
You ferry this oscillating speck
Of wildness outside
To a patient pot of crimson
Geraniums shimmering
Like rubies
In morning’s given light.

Sunday, April 14, 2024

Drama Queen Stomp-Out

Mirabelle emits a guttural screech,

blasts her left boot

into a rusted can of paint,
this mundane doorstop topples

like Sadam Hussein 

spreading an oily sheen
flooding green as April hillsides

now jitterbugging 
across the dance class 

floor while Miss Merkle
retrieves her wire-rimmed glasses

waving brisk farewell 
from her miffed middle finger
to her beloved 

kooky student,
this shooting star-pupil

Of chaotic 
post-modern 
dance.